21 September 2010

Forward Against My Will

Yesterday I got an email from him that he is sending some boxes with some of our stuff in it. I have no idea what is really going to show up and just reading the email made me cry. It is cold and unfeeling and so different from the man I married.

I know he is probably just trying to make sure I have the things I might need but it just feels like he is trying to push me out even more and that hurts. It hasn't even been a week that I have been gone but he is still going down a road I don't want to go on, and I feel helpless. I hate feeling like I am out of control of my life. It makes me want to stop eating again because it is one of the only things in my control right now.

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