Well it has been two months now that we have been apart. Each day kills me a bit...I am starting to wonder if I will just run out eventually. My birthday and Thanksgiving have both passed without a word from him. I sent him a birthday card, several emails, and two text messages in the last month just trying to reconnect. No one in his family is in contact with him though, so I know that it is not just me.
I want him to be happy but I don't think he is any happier right now than he was with me there...and now he has no one to talk to. I feel helpless and just want to help him and help us get back to where we used to be but I don't know if he will ever let that happen. I am planning to send a regular letter to him tomorrow...just a friendly note...that is all I am doing these days, although I do still remind him that I love him.
The hurt hasn't gone away, I think I am just better at dealing with it right now, sort of like how I had to become better at dealing with spending most of my married life on my own. It isn't easier, you just learn to cope
So many of my friends are going through similar situatinos that I can't let myself lose hope...I just have to believe in the promises we made and the love that we have shared and know that we can find our way back to that if we try. I just need to get him to start communicating.
