It has been a while since I have written here.
So I am still living in a temporary life...not at my sister's anymore but still temporary. I actually am getting ready to head back and face the fact that nothing is going to be fixed as long as there is all this space. Another thing I need to change is the fact that I am not journaling at all. I am writing daily but none of it is journal as I think mentally, I just can't face writing about this in my journal.
I started reading this book that not only makes me feel like I am not the only one in the world going through this, it reaffirms my beliefs in the approach I am taking to this whole thing. I don't believe this is about me. This is about him and what he is going through. I believe in my marriage and my vows and I am not going to give up even if that means I have to look like a desparate fool. In the end, if we end up fixing things and happier than we have been in the past, it will have been worth it. I don't care what anyone else thinks, this is my life.
I am taking an exercise class to keep in shape, and two community ed classes to help with my job hunt and my desire to someday write something and get paid for it. These are not me moving on, they are just me trying to figure out the best way to become employed and get my life back. That is my goal...getting my life back...
