So I have been here over three weeks now...in fact tomorrow will mark the beginning of week 4. I was forced to email him this past week to let him know the status of our stuff, and because I didn't just want to send a "business" email, I took the opportunity to put myself out there a bit. I was honest about how I feel and what I want to see us do but who knows if he will hear me or even respond.
I got a second email from the shippers about our stuff and still hadn't heard from him so I asked them to put the stuff in storage for now. I hope he will contact me soon with whatever the plans are since they were very vague when I left.
I have just started to get my mail from the old post office, so I should be getting the box that has my keys in it and I can finally get my truck. Last weekend we went down to see my mom so we could help her get some things done. She needed some technical support and then some physical laborers...so we did both. I think we relieved a lot of stress for both her and her husband (who is in the middle of going through chemo and radiation) by knocking some things out and it was nice to see them both since I haven't seen either of them for 3 years.
We are probably going to try to visit our dad this coming weekend as well...which will be nice too.
I am still completely stuck and devastated. I cry pretty much every day and I don't see that changing any time soon. I had a bit of a panic attack the other day because I am really not sure I can survive this or if I even want to. I can't imagine being alone for the rest of my life, and I can't believe how foolish I was to believe him that he was going to be with me forever and not ever hurt me like he just has.
